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Last night I attended a support group for teenagers who are either gay-bi age`s 14-19  I met Ruth who runs
the group before the meeting  its a group that has 15 members they dont all attend every week usually around 8 a week  and held at a college in the evenings  Ruth has asked me to a information sheet  about myself  forgot to add a photo though .  she has a few volunteer`s who help her out  at the moment I am there for a month and if we are both happy It can be for longer . anyway Ruth just asked me to read the file about who  attends and about their back ground .
one of the group Steven  approached me saying Ruth asked him to me if he could take my photo on his phone to upload a photo I was fine with that .
I hadn't even read about Steven yet  16 gay and lives in sheltered accommodation arranged by his social worker  .
have noticed that some have family problems  as well as personal issues  like self harming ,  abuse , well
being anyway after I had read the file  we had a break and Ruth asked me If some of the group could  Interview me ask me some more questions?  but she did asked me to not go into to much detail  in some aspects  and to respect there ages . which is perfectly understandable ?   I was A little nervous now  I know very little about any of them  am told Its like an introduction to everyone  also so people can gain my trust  !!!!!!

so am sat in front of everyone waiting for something  similar to the Spanish Inquisition  !!!!
I was asked the Usual  Are you out to many of your friends    ``Most of them ``
Do you care if people have a Issue with you being gay        ``Not any more  its their problem not mine ``
 Have you been tested for STD  !!! Ruth Quickly interrupted them  You dont have to answer that Lee
 I did say I didnt mind answering the question    told them I had been tested twice `` three really``  both times I was given all clear .  questions weren't all that bad really  Steven showed me my Photo he had printed out for me  he does come across as pretty street wise lad .Afterwards Ruth told me  I did all right asked if I was happy to sometimes get involved in some social gatherings like bowling  or BBQ`s held at her home once in a while . so Id say it went ok  again its only a few hours a week . 


T shirt designs for Manchester pride are  on-going ``or doing my head in ``whatever you like  its going to cost a bit more than expected  but we will get by  need to order the plain t shirts  in bulk from Ebay
then get designs on a disk or memory stick then take them to a printer who Trish at collage knows  .
we dont need to do all this because we get T shirts  and merchandise  from the organisers  but in the end we want to raise more money .by the way their is a prise for most money raised  but thats got nothing to do with it  :) ;)   .  
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have i bitten off more than i can chew .

hello.

        This week has been good everything  going well Health & safety gave us a glowing report  says we have a  good team set up allot better than last year .

anyway Ive been thinking for the past few months  about doing something else so I looked into support groups I will admit they are gay-lesbian  found several on  THE QUEER YOUTH NETWORK   ``horrible name I know``but via that network I found several that looked interesting so I picked one out made a phone call and arranged to go talk to someone  guy named Russell who organised activities and stuff  who was helpful but the group was on a large scale and took up allot of your time  It was way to much for me  but
Russell again very helpful  asked me to get in touch with a lady called Ruth .we met over a cup of coffee on Thursday Ruth run`s a group for young teens aged 14-19 boys & girls about 15 of them go on a good week and she needs more helpers   to make tea get the room we have ready and  tidy up exc  its only a few hours a week  . Ruth is about 40 ish she started the group  about 18 months ago
to give  the teenagers a platform a  voice  Ruth has seen several of the people that have attended  move on to a bigger platform  join a larger group.
am looking forward to doing this I know am starting as a general dog`s body  Ruth has said I need to be patient  that's fine with me.  Been asked to do like an information sheet like an introduction to myself for the group file. and will  try and make most Wednesday evenings after work .

Also last year I helped at gay pride @ Manchester with fund raising well me & scot have been asked back scot wanted to do like a market stall that sold T shirts , bangles ,badges  they said ok  we already get given allot of merchandise to sell for gay pride t shirts exc but we both want to do are own designs to it would cost us a bit more but if we sell it all more money goes to charities makes it all worth while .
might be able to get help with the designs from Trish at collage  then some blank t shirts from wholesalers who sell them in bulk .god i hope this is worth while .    
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gone but not forgotten

Hello All

            Had a difficult week at work were due a visit for the health & safety inspectors sometime next week so have spent most of the week organising paperwork making sure everything is up to date  also we have a few new staff started a few weeks ago  so Its my responsibly to make sure they have been given a proper induction and that they are happy .

Sam is a bit stressed having trouble getting a decent child minder for her little boy Simon and the usual one she has  is starting a new job in London more money and all that so Sam has been having different people for the past few weeks none of them are good enough for her  she has already accused one of them of neglecting Simon  Sam is someone you dont want to get on the wrong side of sometimes .

The news of Gabe`s passing upset me a little I will admit I dont deal with this sort of thing well at all
the fact he was just 16 made it worse  but I had a good talk and yes there were tears  I will admit I dont
discuss being gay allot with my mum much  if anything its more with Ben&Mark as of late but I know  that if I wanted to talk she would happily listen .

Collage is fine.    you remember I was saying about Steven who lost his grandmother a month back well
him and his mum have moved into her old house she left the house to his mum the house is much bigger
so more room also his grandmother left him some money so he decided to pay of him and mum depths
so they both owe nothing to anyone  am happy that he feels better

last night I went to the pub with some friends watched the Football  Chelsea won was a good boy no alcohol past my lips .

got to have some dental treatment next week   so I get another day off  am praying the health & safety people come then .
                                                    Lee

its Party time .

hello again .
                well this week has taken forever to end for me what with my work its taken me to Darby of all places never been there before or driven there  so thank you sat-nav we did an induction day training workshop more or less people introducing themselves  some participation exercises  ``didnt go down well ``
you could feel the conflict between some of the people a mile off just waiting for it all to kick off  these people are in the 20-30 years old group need to do some growing up .


managed the gym in the evening  getting used to a cross-trainer like having the confidence to use something   like that and finding your own zone  sounds total crap  but at least I know what am on about .  I know its only a machine  working with but there needs to be an understanding . also am joining there running club so off a cross country ruining thing  haven't done that since PE at school  even in the pissing rain still consider that a form of abuse .

At collage someone  ``Trisha `` is throwing a Britain's got talent Party  its the finale today Saturday  so were brining some booze , food , its not a dressing up thing just an excuse to to get drunk  in front of the TV  Rebecca who i share the house with begged me to take her  as did Scot  had to ask
Trisha she`s having the party  says the more the merrier as long as they bring booze . I have no idea who is going to win  hope it the welsh quire but it could be the girl with the dancing dog  sounds bad  but honestly its quite good  also a guy with a guitar could steal it  I just don't know .

Have decided to post some past experiences will try to do one a week ish  some are light hearted look at my life some are maybe are serious  and one is downright depressing but it has to be done .
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IN THE FINAL

BEEN KEEPING  AN EYE ON ONLY BOYS ALLOWED  AGES 14-19
Only Boys Aloud - Britains got talent 2012 Semi Final - YouTube


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THERE IN THE FINAL ALONG WITH A GIRL WITH A DANCING DOG

YA WEDNESDAY .....

Been a good weekend On Saturday I went to the football my team Sheffield Wednesday who have had a grate season and won promotion to the championship league  we finished 2nd uncle had got some tickets for the final game  so me and dad went with him .we needed a win and won 2-0 the other Sheffield side united  are in the play off`s came 3rd in the league so all in all its been a good weekend for the city of Sheffield .  I Will admit I celebrated a lot 

on Saturday night had way to much to drink with Dad& uncle my football shirt is ruined has beer wine  mud I fell over several times once in some sick not mine . woke up next morning on my dads sofa dont remember  settling on the sofa  `Don`t even remember going back to my dads ` my head felt like it was full of cotton wool  didn feel like staying around just went back home peace and quirt  . Scot came round telling me about what he picked up on Free comic day  scot`s comic`s are worth thousands  been collecting

for 15 years and has about 5000  most of them are DC batman superman green lantern his free comic was a new 52   must admit I know little about the comic`s stuff whet I do know i learn form Sheldon cooper .Big Bang theory tv show .and also when am listening to scot .

Its bank holiday Monday not much doing just lazing about .

             

my Saturday`s when It was kicking in ..

When I was in my teens 13 onwards I had a paper round after and before school I only lived in a village that wasn't that big so It didnt take all that long on my bike  still having plenty of time to get home quick shower and change into my uniform  same after school  with out the shower half the time .
Anyway it put a bit of money in my pocket as well as mum did to when she could  so after I had got paid at the weekend usually I would go with my friends to look around shops go bowling  or the cinema
Also around this time  my hormones were starting to kick in big time and being Gay witch I knew I defiantly was at that age   

Anyway I  decided to isolate myself go by myself somewhere  like Matlock a town near to where I lived
Id walk around the shops and markets with my headphones on in a world of my own . I discovered a second hand  market stall that sold books and magazines.

 You remember that I had a paper round well I used to also help unpack the magazines to one of the magazines the shop used to sell was top  shelf ones  like for adults  most were for straight guys  you know tits out and all that but one was guys naked guys .so back at this market stall am finding myself looking older back issues  so am looking who`s watching and I see nobody so I thought to hell with it I picked one with a football magazine on top of it and took to the Woman on the stall she takes them looks at the magazines am going pillow box red and not giving any eye contact at all  I just paid her the money
and that was it I shoved it in my backpack and quickly walked off ok I ran a little  that went on for months had built up a bit of a collection that I hid in my room like a secret stash of them  when I moved
out I took them all with me  or so i thought .
Mark found a bag of them under the wardrobe when he moved in to my old room :o  he swears he didnt  take a peek he just called me & asked what do i do with em ?       
Brit Boys # 23 Magazine Back Issue Brit Boys Amateur:

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now I know what you might be thinking  I know you might see them as gay w#nk mags  I will give you that  but it also it had helpful information  story`s and it helped me knowing am not alone in this big Gay world of ours  also I used to have one in my bag for work that soon stoped when sam found it and sat and read it at lunch I was  not a happy bunny .