I was shown this by a guy called Darren or Daz as he prefers to be called he`s 15 thinks he knows it all
he`s attends the support group that i help out at .it was made a few years back watched it a few times now if I had seen something like this in my teens like 15-17 it would have helped me understand things better .
it shows how peoples attitudes towards being gay has changed its taken 45 years to be accepted as an equal i doubt everyone will . I have only met Darren a couple of times he thinks he `s street wise but he`s not.
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I guess am still living in the dark age`s
didnt do the leather things much had a pair of trousers just made me sweat people may regard it as sexy but alass its not for me .
poppers i admit have given them a go again not for me last time i was spewing up for hours not sexy is it
LEE x
A CURE FOR CANCER
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
Monday, 16 July 2012
SO MUCH HAPPENING .
Sorry its taken a while to post anything but there are reasons .
DAD
my dad`s not well he was taken ill with heart problems he had a bit of a scare last year and the doctors told him he had a heart murmur and he needed to reduce fatty food . he also cut down on his work at a builders
yard as well as a driver delivering building materials bricks ,wood, exc anyway this year got laid off knew it was going to happen and when it did he took it bad causing him quite allot of stress because having no work he got board and stuff he did have money put by as well as taking out pensions keeping for a rainy day and little nest egg when he retires as well as money from work when he got laid off should have been happy but as i said he gets board becomes unbearable to live with .anyway last month things went really bad began going back to his old way and ended up in hospital had a mild heart
attack , then another at the hospital right in front of everyone me mum his wife will admit I thought he was gone then but he made a slow recovery has had a few operations and he made a steady recovery .
he cant drive at the moment I can tell this is killing him as well as people running around doing things for
him he had a birthday last week 56 and if am honest he looked quite depressed guess anyone would after
having the kind of year he has had .
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Dad loves this song says it takes him back to being a young un
SCOT
his mum has died while dad was in hospital this is quite upsetting scot loved his mum to bits but she had various issues alcohol when she was in her 20s also addiction to painkillers and substances Scot says she would constantly find faults with him in his teens at 16 he told her he was gay I could go on forever about his mum but scot told me she would die a sad and bitter women.
His dads cut up about it to at her funeral allot of people came scot says plenty of people tried to help her
out but she pushed them all away which is really sad.
Work has more or less kept me sane I did get time off when dad was in hospital which am grateful for
and Scot wants to go away sometime in September.
things are a bit better checking on dad every few days and his wife Sharon has given up work and looking after him and Joshua more or less his grandson is there everyday bad news is Gail brings him
and does fuck all lol
DAD
my dad`s not well he was taken ill with heart problems he had a bit of a scare last year and the doctors told him he had a heart murmur and he needed to reduce fatty food . he also cut down on his work at a builders
yard as well as a driver delivering building materials bricks ,wood, exc anyway this year got laid off knew it was going to happen and when it did he took it bad causing him quite allot of stress because having no work he got board and stuff he did have money put by as well as taking out pensions keeping for a rainy day and little nest egg when he retires as well as money from work when he got laid off should have been happy but as i said he gets board becomes unbearable to live with .anyway last month things went really bad began going back to his old way and ended up in hospital had a mild heart
attack , then another at the hospital right in front of everyone me mum his wife will admit I thought he was gone then but he made a slow recovery has had a few operations and he made a steady recovery .
he cant drive at the moment I can tell this is killing him as well as people running around doing things for
him he had a birthday last week 56 and if am honest he looked quite depressed guess anyone would after
having the kind of year he has had .
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Dad loves this song says it takes him back to being a young un
SCOT
his mum has died while dad was in hospital this is quite upsetting scot loved his mum to bits but she had various issues alcohol when she was in her 20s also addiction to painkillers and substances Scot says she would constantly find faults with him in his teens at 16 he told her he was gay I could go on forever about his mum but scot told me she would die a sad and bitter women.
His dads cut up about it to at her funeral allot of people came scot says plenty of people tried to help her
out but she pushed them all away which is really sad.
Work has more or less kept me sane I did get time off when dad was in hospital which am grateful for
and Scot wants to go away sometime in September.
things are a bit better checking on dad every few days and his wife Sharon has given up work and looking after him and Joshua more or less his grandson is there everyday bad news is Gail brings him
and does fuck all lol
Wednesday, 6 June 2012
CELEBRATIONS
we had usual British weather rain ,cloudy, bit cold .but did it stop people celebrating DID IT BUGGERY!.
Saturday was spent at Ben & marks School the were having a Fun day despite the fact it rained most of the day it Didn't bother anyone they had various stalls now moved indoors mark had made some cakes
he shot himself in the foot a bit hear as he never ever ever cooks at home so am sure mum`s going to be having words . Ben was dressed up as a beefeater or a guard at the tower of London but he looked so cute in it he`s still with his girlfriend but I think they have moved on to the next level of the relationship .
Later on we went to uncles house some cousins were down for the weekend from Yorkshire I had not seen some of them since I was 11-12 years old one of them was cousin David 5 years older than me
David was a bit of a bully when he was younger always had an attitude or chip on his shoulder but regardless of it all I had a little crush on him my first male crush so maybe it was a bit more than a little crush when I was 12 I thought he was the bees knees wanted to be near him at every opportunity
at bedtime he was on my mind a little and it kept me busy !!!!!!!!!!!
anyhow nowadays he`s put on a couple of pounds used to have a cute tight bum today you could park a bike in it . he`s really let himself go its tragic . he has several kids by different woman . also met fay were the same age have birthdays close together and when I was younger we got on really well played together ,told each other everything when I was younger I was really close to telling her about my feelings towards boys but in the end i chicken`ed out of it .there was several other cousins arriving god
knows where they were going to stop .
on Sunday we were having lunch together at a hotel 15 of us around two tables put together a tight ish squeeze several other relatives came I had met some last year at my aunty's funeral dads big sister I was terrified of her as a boy 5-6 used to chase after me and give sloppy kisses ewwwwwwww.
Lisa and Joshua were there Joshua is such a adorable little kid`` nothing like his mum at all `` David `s face lit up when he capped eyes on Lisa god knows why . but it was nice to see everybody even been invited up to theirs am considering visiting some ....
Monday I went to a rugby club BBQ with some cousins as well as Sam&Allan ikkle Simon ``bundle of fun as always ``and eventually Scot I will admit I had had a few beers on Monday with Fay she is training to be a police officer but you would`nt have guessed but we had the chat about I was Gay took it well I didnt tell her about lusting after David it was a long time ago But I more or less mentioned everything else including desperately wanting to tell her when I was younger but didnt have the courage to . it was a really good night stuffed myself stupid with hot dogs , burgers , take a bit of work to get all that fat off me . at the end we lit the beacon and fireworks A good night had by all
Thursday, 31 May 2012
went wel
Last night I attended a support group for teenagers who are either gay-bi age`s 14-19 I met Ruth who runs
the group before the meeting its a group that has 15 members they dont all attend every week usually around 8 a week and held at a college in the evenings Ruth has asked me to a information sheet about myself forgot to add a photo though . she has a few volunteer`s who help her out at the moment I am there for a month and if we are both happy It can be for longer . anyway Ruth just asked me to read the file about who attends and about their back ground .
one of the group Steven approached me saying Ruth asked him to me if he could take my photo on his phone to upload a photo I was fine with that .
I hadn't even read about Steven yet 16 gay and lives in sheltered accommodation arranged by his social worker .
have noticed that some have family problems as well as personal issues like self harming , abuse , well
being anyway after I had read the file we had a break and Ruth asked me If some of the group could Interview me ask me some more questions? but she did asked me to not go into to much detail in some aspects and to respect there ages . which is perfectly understandable ? I was A little nervous now I know very little about any of them am told Its like an introduction to everyone also so people can gain my trust !!!!!!
so am sat in front of everyone waiting for something similar to the Spanish Inquisition !!!!
I was asked the Usual Are you out to many of your friends ``Most of them ``
Do you care if people have a Issue with you being gay ``Not any more its their problem not mine ``
Have you been tested for STD !!! Ruth Quickly interrupted them You dont have to answer that Lee
I did say I didnt mind answering the question told them I had been tested twice `` three really`` both times I was given all clear . questions weren't all that bad really Steven showed me my Photo he had printed out for me he does come across as pretty street wise lad .Afterwards Ruth told me I did all right asked if I was happy to sometimes get involved in some social gatherings like bowling or BBQ`s held at her home once in a while . so Id say it went ok again its only a few hours a week .
T shirt designs for Manchester pride are on-going ``or doing my head in ``whatever you like its going to cost a bit more than expected but we will get by need to order the plain t shirts in bulk from Ebay
then get designs on a disk or memory stick then take them to a printer who Trish at collage knows .
we dont need to do all this because we get T shirts and merchandise from the organisers but in the end we want to raise more money .by the way their is a prise for most money raised but thats got nothing to do with it :) ;) .
Lee
the group before the meeting its a group that has 15 members they dont all attend every week usually around 8 a week and held at a college in the evenings Ruth has asked me to a information sheet about myself forgot to add a photo though . she has a few volunteer`s who help her out at the moment I am there for a month and if we are both happy It can be for longer . anyway Ruth just asked me to read the file about who attends and about their back ground .
one of the group Steven approached me saying Ruth asked him to me if he could take my photo on his phone to upload a photo I was fine with that .
I hadn't even read about Steven yet 16 gay and lives in sheltered accommodation arranged by his social worker .
have noticed that some have family problems as well as personal issues like self harming , abuse , well
being anyway after I had read the file we had a break and Ruth asked me If some of the group could Interview me ask me some more questions? but she did asked me to not go into to much detail in some aspects and to respect there ages . which is perfectly understandable ? I was A little nervous now I know very little about any of them am told Its like an introduction to everyone also so people can gain my trust !!!!!!
so am sat in front of everyone waiting for something similar to the Spanish Inquisition !!!!
I was asked the Usual Are you out to many of your friends ``Most of them ``
Do you care if people have a Issue with you being gay ``Not any more its their problem not mine ``
Have you been tested for STD !!! Ruth Quickly interrupted them You dont have to answer that Lee
I did say I didnt mind answering the question told them I had been tested twice `` three really`` both times I was given all clear . questions weren't all that bad really Steven showed me my Photo he had printed out for me he does come across as pretty street wise lad .Afterwards Ruth told me I did all right asked if I was happy to sometimes get involved in some social gatherings like bowling or BBQ`s held at her home once in a while . so Id say it went ok again its only a few hours a week .
T shirt designs for Manchester pride are on-going ``or doing my head in ``whatever you like its going to cost a bit more than expected but we will get by need to order the plain t shirts in bulk from Ebay
then get designs on a disk or memory stick then take them to a printer who Trish at collage knows .
we dont need to do all this because we get T shirts and merchandise from the organisers but in the end we want to raise more money .by the way their is a prise for most money raised but thats got nothing to do with it :) ;) .
Lee
Sunday, 27 May 2012
have i bitten off more than i can chew .
hello.
This week has been good everything going well Health & safety gave us a glowing report says we have a good team set up allot better than last year .
anyway Ive been thinking for the past few months about doing something else so I looked into support groups I will admit they are gay-lesbian found several on THE QUEER YOUTH NETWORK ``horrible name I know``but via that network I found several that looked interesting so I picked one out made a phone call and arranged to go talk to someone guy named Russell who organised activities and stuff who was helpful but the group was on a large scale and took up allot of your time It was way to much for me but
Russell again very helpful asked me to get in touch with a lady called Ruth .we met over a cup of coffee on Thursday Ruth run`s a group for young teens aged 14-19 boys & girls about 15 of them go on a good week and she needs more helpers to make tea get the room we have ready and tidy up exc its only a few hours a week . Ruth is about 40 ish she started the group about 18 months ago
to give the teenagers a platform a voice Ruth has seen several of the people that have attended move on to a bigger platform join a larger group.
am looking forward to doing this I know am starting as a general dog`s body Ruth has said I need to be patient that's fine with me. Been asked to do like an information sheet like an introduction to myself for the group file. and will try and make most Wednesday evenings after work .
Also last year I helped at gay pride @ Manchester with fund raising well me & scot have been asked back scot wanted to do like a market stall that sold T shirts , bangles ,badges they said ok we already get given allot of merchandise to sell for gay pride t shirts exc but we both want to do are own designs to it would cost us a bit more but if we sell it all more money goes to charities makes it all worth while .
might be able to get help with the designs from Trish at collage then some blank t shirts from wholesalers who sell them in bulk .god i hope this is worth while .
LEE XX
Russell again very helpful asked me to get in touch with a lady called Ruth .we met over a cup of coffee on Thursday Ruth run`s a group for young teens aged 14-19 boys & girls about 15 of them go on a good week and she needs more helpers to make tea get the room we have ready and tidy up exc its only a few hours a week . Ruth is about 40 ish she started the group about 18 months ago
to give the teenagers a platform a voice Ruth has seen several of the people that have attended move on to a bigger platform join a larger group.
am looking forward to doing this I know am starting as a general dog`s body Ruth has said I need to be patient that's fine with me. Been asked to do like an information sheet like an introduction to myself for the group file. and will try and make most Wednesday evenings after work .
Also last year I helped at gay pride @ Manchester with fund raising well me & scot have been asked back scot wanted to do like a market stall that sold T shirts , bangles ,badges they said ok we already get given allot of merchandise to sell for gay pride t shirts exc but we both want to do are own designs to it would cost us a bit more but if we sell it all more money goes to charities makes it all worth while .
might be able to get help with the designs from Trish at collage then some blank t shirts from wholesalers who sell them in bulk .god i hope this is worth while .
LEE XX
Sunday, 20 May 2012
gone but not forgotten
Hello All
Had a difficult week at work were due a visit for the health & safety inspectors sometime next week so have spent most of the week organising paperwork making sure everything is up to date also we have a few new staff started a few weeks ago so Its my responsibly to make sure they have been given a proper induction and that they are happy .
Sam is a bit stressed having trouble getting a decent child minder for her little boy Simon and the usual one she has is starting a new job in London more money and all that so Sam has been having different people for the past few weeks none of them are good enough for her she has already accused one of them of neglecting Simon Sam is someone you dont want to get on the wrong side of sometimes .
The news of Gabe`s passing upset me a little I will admit I dont deal with this sort of thing well at all
the fact he was just 16 made it worse but I had a good talk and yes there were tears I will admit I dont
discuss being gay allot with my mum much if anything its more with Ben&Mark as of late but I know that if I wanted to talk she would happily listen .
Collage is fine. you remember I was saying about Steven who lost his grandmother a month back well
him and his mum have moved into her old house she left the house to his mum the house is much bigger
so more room also his grandmother left him some money so he decided to pay of him and mum depths
so they both owe nothing to anyone am happy that he feels better
last night I went to the pub with some friends watched the Football Chelsea won was a good boy no alcohol past my lips .
got to have some dental treatment next week so I get another day off am praying the health & safety people come then .
Lee
Sam is a bit stressed having trouble getting a decent child minder for her little boy Simon and the usual one she has is starting a new job in London more money and all that so Sam has been having different people for the past few weeks none of them are good enough for her she has already accused one of them of neglecting Simon Sam is someone you dont want to get on the wrong side of sometimes .
The news of Gabe`s passing upset me a little I will admit I dont deal with this sort of thing well at all
the fact he was just 16 made it worse but I had a good talk and yes there were tears I will admit I dont
discuss being gay allot with my mum much if anything its more with Ben&Mark as of late but I know that if I wanted to talk she would happily listen .
Collage is fine. you remember I was saying about Steven who lost his grandmother a month back well
him and his mum have moved into her old house she left the house to his mum the house is much bigger
so more room also his grandmother left him some money so he decided to pay of him and mum depths
so they both owe nothing to anyone am happy that he feels better
last night I went to the pub with some friends watched the Football Chelsea won was a good boy no alcohol past my lips .
got to have some dental treatment next week so I get another day off am praying the health & safety people come then .
Lee
Saturday, 12 May 2012
its Party time .
hello again .
well this week has taken forever to end for me what with my work its taken me to Darby of all places never been there before or driven there so thank you sat-nav we did an induction day training workshop more or less people introducing themselves some participation exercises ``didnt go down well ``
you could feel the conflict between some of the people a mile off just waiting for it all to kick off these people are in the 20-30 years old group need to do some growing up .
managed the gym in the evening getting used to a cross-trainer like having the confidence to use something like that and finding your own zone sounds total crap but at least I know what am on about . I know its only a machine working with but there needs to be an understanding . also am joining there running club so off a cross country ruining thing haven't done that since PE at school even in the pissing rain still consider that a form of abuse .
At collage someone ``Trisha `` is throwing a Britain's got talent Party its the finale today Saturday so were brining some booze , food , its not a dressing up thing just an excuse to to get drunk in front of the TV Rebecca who i share the house with begged me to take her as did Scot had to ask
Trisha she`s having the party says the more the merrier as long as they bring booze . I have no idea who is going to win hope it the welsh quire but it could be the girl with the dancing dog sounds bad but honestly its quite good also a guy with a guitar could steal it I just don't know .
Have decided to post some past experiences will try to do one a week ish some are light hearted look at my life some are maybe are serious and one is downright depressing but it has to be done .
Lee x
well this week has taken forever to end for me what with my work its taken me to Darby of all places never been there before or driven there so thank you sat-nav we did an induction day training workshop more or less people introducing themselves some participation exercises ``didnt go down well ``
you could feel the conflict between some of the people a mile off just waiting for it all to kick off these people are in the 20-30 years old group need to do some growing up .
managed the gym in the evening getting used to a cross-trainer like having the confidence to use something like that and finding your own zone sounds total crap but at least I know what am on about . I know its only a machine working with but there needs to be an understanding . also am joining there running club so off a cross country ruining thing haven't done that since PE at school even in the pissing rain still consider that a form of abuse .
At collage someone ``Trisha `` is throwing a Britain's got talent Party its the finale today Saturday so were brining some booze , food , its not a dressing up thing just an excuse to to get drunk in front of the TV Rebecca who i share the house with begged me to take her as did Scot had to ask
Trisha she`s having the party says the more the merrier as long as they bring booze . I have no idea who is going to win hope it the welsh quire but it could be the girl with the dancing dog sounds bad but honestly its quite good also a guy with a guitar could steal it I just don't know .
Have decided to post some past experiences will try to do one a week ish some are light hearted look at my life some are maybe are serious and one is downright depressing but it has to be done .
Lee x
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