YA WEDNESDAY .....

Been a good weekend On Saturday I went to the football my team Sheffield Wednesday who have had a grate season and won promotion to the championship league  we finished 2nd uncle had got some tickets for the final game  so me and dad went with him .we needed a win and won 2-0 the other Sheffield side united  are in the play off`s came 3rd in the league so all in all its been a good weekend for the city of Sheffield .  I Will admit I celebrated a lot 

on Saturday night had way to much to drink with Dad& uncle my football shirt is ruined has beer wine  mud I fell over several times once in some sick not mine . woke up next morning on my dads sofa dont remember  settling on the sofa  `Don`t even remember going back to my dads ` my head felt like it was full of cotton wool  didn feel like staying around just went back home peace and quirt  . Scot came round telling me about what he picked up on Free comic day  scot`s comic`s are worth thousands  been collecting

for 15 years and has about 5000  most of them are DC batman superman green lantern his free comic was a new 52   must admit I know little about the comic`s stuff whet I do know i learn form Sheldon cooper .Big Bang theory tv show .and also when am listening to scot .

Its bank holiday Monday not much doing just lazing about .

             

my Saturday`s when It was kicking in ..

When I was in my teens 13 onwards I had a paper round after and before school I only lived in a village that wasn't that big so It didnt take all that long on my bike  still having plenty of time to get home quick shower and change into my uniform  same after school  with out the shower half the time .
Anyway it put a bit of money in my pocket as well as mum did to when she could  so after I had got paid at the weekend usually I would go with my friends to look around shops go bowling  or the cinema
Also around this time  my hormones were starting to kick in big time and being Gay witch I knew I defiantly was at that age   

Anyway I  decided to isolate myself go by myself somewhere  like Matlock a town near to where I lived
Id walk around the shops and markets with my headphones on in a world of my own . I discovered a second hand  market stall that sold books and magazines.

 You remember that I had a paper round well I used to also help unpack the magazines to one of the magazines the shop used to sell was top  shelf ones  like for adults  most were for straight guys  you know tits out and all that but one was guys naked guys .so back at this market stall am finding myself looking older back issues  so am looking who`s watching and I see nobody so I thought to hell with it I picked one with a football magazine on top of it and took to the Woman on the stall she takes them looks at the magazines am going pillow box red and not giving any eye contact at all  I just paid her the money
and that was it I shoved it in my backpack and quickly walked off ok I ran a little  that went on for months had built up a bit of a collection that I hid in my room like a secret stash of them  when I moved
out I took them all with me  or so i thought .
Mark found a bag of them under the wardrobe when he moved in to my old room :o  he swears he didnt  take a peek he just called me & asked what do i do with em ?       
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now I know what you might be thinking  I know you might see them as gay w#nk mags  I will give you that  but it also it had helpful information  story`s and it helped me knowing am not alone in this big Gay world of ours  also I used to have one in my bag for work that soon stoped when sam found it and sat and read it at lunch I was  not a happy bunny .

Antony and the Johnsons - Hope There's Someone (Live Jools Holland 2005) - YouTube

This is much better  again its not everyone's cup of tea and yes it is a dark song  but the voice is ahhhhhh.
Antony and the Johnsons - Hope There's Someone (Live Jools Holland 2005) - YouTube:

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food

So I think today has gone rather well at mums was a full house mum , martin ,Ben,Mark as well as my self and scot   they  haven't seen Scot in a while  think the last time was my 19th birthday and scot didnt say much and didnt stay long mum thought it was a bit rude of him then .But today scot was all nice polite maybe a bit over the top  trying to hard  he got on alight with Ben he has been known to tease Ben a bit but today he just chatted away Mark has never minded him always got on with him . have to admit the roast lamb was was the best meal in a long time  makes you realise what you've been missing  .
 Ben keeps on about a tv show The Voice  Scot made me watch this last night  he likes one of the proformas on the show  I know some of the judges like Tom Jones . and William or will-i am whatever  Ben likes Jessie J  not my kind of music but he will grow out of it am sure .
Scots now gone to his dads has work in the morning  as I do too to be honest I cant wait  been off two weeks and It kills me to say ive missed it ......

this song I admit is not everyone's cup of tea  some people think it a bit weird & depressive have to admit when I first herd it I thought the same but the thing grew on me was in my head for weeks
but his voice is something else .



sorry about the video content guys should have picked a better one better taking it down post a better one

Time alone .

Had a good week  on Tuesday I looked after Simon sam`s little boy  for a couple of hours  more or less got the hang of staying on his feet without falling over  seams to have gone off the teapot song  it used to be constant time and time again  its just one in a while now  likes to play football , hide and seek, managed  to jump on my bad toe still a bit bruised but less painful still simon was warn out after all the running about by the time Sam & Alan had returned he was fast asleep on the sofa .

Having the weekend with Scot we haven't had much time together as of late Scot hadn't felt up to it does get moody sometimes just wanting to be by himself sometimes  but he wanted to come over this weekend so I gave the place a good spring clean with Rebecca one of my house mates she didn't sound to keen it took bribery in the end ``Alcohol`` also bought some new bedding didnt need it really  but they were in a sale.
On friday night we went to the local  pub just me and scot  got a bit merry  then had some fun in the bedroom  made sure the stereo was on a little louder  .

yesterday we did some more shopping wont break the bank am usually good with my money never been a one for splashing the cash  ended up with some jeans and t shirts  Scot used to be really bad with his money ignored bills  couldn`t manage the rent  but he has learned his lesson he  now lives with his dad who has more or less picked up the pieces from stuff that went off last year . last night we stayed in in front of the tv everyone was out doing stuff so we had the place to ourselves been a while since we had time alone .

Today were off to my mum`s Sunday lunch thing its the only meal in the week when everyone is together at the same time it`s almost 10 am scot`s still fast asleep  not for much longer thoe  been awake since 8am  always have been an early  bird      .

 one of my Favorited songs at the moment it`s very laid back        
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IT was a big book ....

Hiya
        hope you are all well  I`ve  been taking some time off work feel I deserve it so I took a few weeks off
on the first day of the holiday I dropped one of my collage books on my Toe  next to little Toe and it bloody hurt
was a big book so I now have a bloody big bruise still I will live .
Had a weekend away in Blackpool went by myself did ask scot if he wanted to tag along with me but he didnt want to so I went by myself  and I had a nice weekend met a few new people stayed at a hotel in the gay village I was hoping it wouldn't be to over the top with gayness you know pink glitter tight shorts  was glad it was just normal . 
i was a bit shy at first being on my tod/by myself  but I was made to feel more than welcome  the hotel was full
and I must admit I was the youngest by about 30 years the guy at the reception told me that but I was made welcome the food was reasonable well stocked bar that's a must  as I met a few people one was Matthew and his friend nick and they were fine I did make it clear I wasn't looking to cop off and thankfully I didn't honest .
I was happy to join them in the heated swimming pool kept my shorts on but I will admit they were naked also naturist have found out quite allot of gay people are naturist have no problems expressing themselves or letting it all hang out  if you know what I mean  I did feel at home at the hotel and love to go again maybe next time with someone I think .

At collage I have got to know a guy named Steven nothing funny going on but a month or so back his nanny
past away and he was gutted  about it he could have opened his heart to anyone of his friends but  picked me          
god knows why the very thought of loosing any of my family would really upset me  I just listened to him let
him get it off his chest and there was allot  of stuff  including his abusive dad he used to drink allot come home and beat his wife  Steven `s  mum up and it wasn't long before he stood up to his dad  but that just made his dad angrier  that was a few years back his dad just went missing one day not been in touch with him or his mum   I just feel blessed that I had a happier up bringing

Theirs a story going round in the uk it about a guy in his 20s and a few years ago he`d had a stroke before the stroke he was straight had girlfriends one of the lads   after the stroke he`d turned gay   which got me thinking
could a stroke turn someone gay ? could a stroke turn me straight ? seriously doubt it  but I was curious so I looked into it on the net and I doubting the story even more  am thinking he had gay feeling at a younger age like myself  but was in denial then again I may be wrong ............. 
I had a good upbringing like most people had  just the odd few that had a shit one .Steven has been left quite a bit of money of his nan but it don`t bring his nan back she was 83 years old by the way not a bad innings

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Feeling generous today

thease were took few months ago dont look that bad .

ok some are more daring than others but what the hell.





time for one more oh go on then .

come on you must have  realised ...