IT was a big book ....

Hiya
        hope you are all well  I`ve  been taking some time off work feel I deserve it so I took a few weeks off
on the first day of the holiday I dropped one of my collage books on my Toe  next to little Toe and it bloody hurt
was a big book so I now have a bloody big bruise still I will live .
Had a weekend away in Blackpool went by myself did ask scot if he wanted to tag along with me but he didnt want to so I went by myself  and I had a nice weekend met a few new people stayed at a hotel in the gay village I was hoping it wouldn't be to over the top with gayness you know pink glitter tight shorts  was glad it was just normal . 
i was a bit shy at first being on my tod/by myself  but I was made to feel more than welcome  the hotel was full
and I must admit I was the youngest by about 30 years the guy at the reception told me that but I was made welcome the food was reasonable well stocked bar that's a must  as I met a few people one was Matthew and his friend nick and they were fine I did make it clear I wasn't looking to cop off and thankfully I didn't honest .
I was happy to join them in the heated swimming pool kept my shorts on but I will admit they were naked also naturist have found out quite allot of gay people are naturist have no problems expressing themselves or letting it all hang out  if you know what I mean  I did feel at home at the hotel and love to go again maybe next time with someone I think .

At collage I have got to know a guy named Steven nothing funny going on but a month or so back his nanny
past away and he was gutted  about it he could have opened his heart to anyone of his friends but  picked me          
god knows why the very thought of loosing any of my family would really upset me  I just listened to him let
him get it off his chest and there was allot  of stuff  including his abusive dad he used to drink allot come home and beat his wife  Steven `s  mum up and it wasn't long before he stood up to his dad  but that just made his dad angrier  that was a few years back his dad just went missing one day not been in touch with him or his mum   I just feel blessed that I had a happier up bringing

Theirs a story going round in the uk it about a guy in his 20s and a few years ago he`d had a stroke before the stroke he was straight had girlfriends one of the lads   after the stroke he`d turned gay   which got me thinking
could a stroke turn someone gay ? could a stroke turn me straight ? seriously doubt it  but I was curious so I looked into it on the net and I doubting the story even more  am thinking he had gay feeling at a younger age like myself  but was in denial then again I may be wrong ............. 
I had a good upbringing like most people had  just the odd few that had a shit one .Steven has been left quite a bit of money of his nan but it don`t bring his nan back she was 83 years old by the way not a bad innings

new photoes

Feeling generous today

thease were took few months ago dont look that bad .

ok some are more daring than others but what the hell.





time for one more oh go on then .

come on you must have  realised ...

All Good Fun....

sorry its been a while again been really busy at work been out most days working with a new bunch of people
who do stuff like talks about food hygiene , team building workshops `did that before loved it, reporting of accidents , most of the workshops are new to me so am just on hand to help people and participate in group activities . keeping me busy although sometimes I feel rushed to do stuff .
Collage is progressing nicely got a few friends there hung out after college a few times been for a few pints with some of them  have told them am gay it was going to happen soon rather than later so I just told them all
seamed to take it ok  they guys have stooped mentioning  shagging birds  a few of the girls have asked  me if i liked any of the guys  I dont  . I participated in a charity footbal  5 a side tournament we came 3rd loosing in the semi`s to the eventual winners who are also at the collage  but it was good fun raised quite a bit of money for sportsrelief  I was asked to do a body wax to raise money  I declined the offer had one last year off Sam
it Bloody Hurt  decided its less painful to just shave .    

Mark`s  asked me if I would help with a School project its about being different  in my case  being Gay in 2012 and needed to interview someone for the School magazine and he wanted me to be honest in the interview I was even discussed the incidents when I was beaten up a few times  when everyone at my school had found out I was gay  that was`nt easy  not in front of your younger brother Mark says he s not sure if hes comfortable taking that further to the magazine  but I told him It happens in life .    Ben is also doing the same but It cant be me so I put him in touch with Tony I did suggest he choose Scot but Ben wasn't keen  he says Scot is to Gay to much in your face  guess he`s right  Tony is more butch be says and like me he was honest .  They did ask me if anything had happened  between Tony and me  I told them were just mates?  someone you trust . they did get printed by the school  I went to a different school to Ben and mark by the way  mum refused to let them go to my old school .

was reading about the us lottery 640 million dollers or 400 million over hear  its far to much money for someone  the most money in the lottery in the uk was 160 million one person won that last year  Again its far to much money surely a percentage would be better going to a worth while cause .

I was reading about a guy in Austria who didnt want to work rather stay on state benefit `s so the day before he was due to take a return to work medical he took sever measures  like cutting off one of his feet and put the foot in the oven.     the guys never going to be in a stable condition ever again?  well not with just one foot is he  ...
  

      

The Real Thing - You'll Never Know What You're Missing (TOTP 02-03-1977)

if you can view this my mum is on this video  2.09 in front of the big camera its a music show in the uk Top of the pops in 19 77 she went with her older brother   who sadly past away a few year back . this show was transmitted on Friday and it made my mums day . she did get into trouble because she had skipped school to go
ended up being grounded she was 15 .
been laughing at the people in the crowed,  the cloths ,the dancing mum says it was the in thing then .

wont use the Q word again

it`s been a bit since I last posted sorry for that  I start my collage training course this week Wednesdays takes up most of the day so no work on Wednesdays for a few months now .
My birthday party was alright very much a family thing Ben & mark came its rare you get both of them together mark came with Anna was the girl that was knocked over by a car last year & me and Ben helped her she`s grown up a bit  Mark insists there just mates . Scot came along for an hour was glad to see him  been a while since him and mum have spoken  I knew there was going to be some trouble when Lisa my step sister turned up pissed as a fart  `an old northern saying ` but within about 20 mins after she came my aunt was threatening to rip her fuc#ing head off  I  kind of asked her to leave soon after witch started off another outburst its usually a dig about being a queer sorry horrible word .

am at college on Wednesdays began two weeks ago was a bit worried ad be a little
out of my dept  with new people but I was fine  bit concerned about the amount of work that`s involved was never that good with revision at school  could never manage to concentrate enough sometimes but at the moment things are fine .

nothing like this at all =(.

gym is going well was worried about getting board easy also I was worried about  the amount of nakedness  about  its not so bad used to go to sauna with Scot now that was allot of nakedness and going on =0.  all am saying .

mark has given up tracing his family uncles aunts  from his mums side  but didnt get far says he could try again when hes older


       

am such a lightweight sometimes

Had a few drinks with Bev the other night `bit more than a few tbh` beer and allot of red wine kind of blows my head off  bit of a lightweight  sometimes  bev drinks like fish just glad we also got some take away to.

Anyway no topic was off limits we discussed anything  & everything  including politic`s this usually boars the tits of me . we continued onto her past boyfriends  or meany boyfriends as it turned out   as well as how meany men I have been with  ``less than 5`` we carried on to the perfect man if there was one  we sort of agreed that David Beckham is maybe the closest your going to get  both agreed we would shag him to death  given the chance .
we discussed odd places you had sex  I admitted to back of a car and fun in the garden am sure that didnt sound to bad well not when your pissed & stoned  anyway.
I dont consider myself an easy person to shock  but some of bevs places are crazy places like on the back seat of a bus,  park bench ,  I couldn't not so public anyway

going to be having a little get together next week  as its my birthday and mums booked a room at a local social club  this should be fun

Ikkle Teapot

Sam & Alan`s little boy Simon he was 1 few weeks ago and had a little party  I think he had a grate time Sam dot`s on him although she worries to much about him .
I can understand why Sam is so protective of Simon he had a few problems when he was born . one of his legs is a bit smaller than the other  also  Sam`s worried Simon could be showing signs of being Autistic Sam thinks he`s not responding to
things he should respond to at his age  but its still early . I've posted Simon`s best game for him to show off  he does most of the actions without falling over  apart from the tip me up part  not got the balance for that yet  he also likes everyone  to join in   yes even me . I've got to enroll at a local collage need to do a health and safety trainers course . also a food hygiene course , and a study day about whistle blowing   `apparently its got nothing to do with whistling `. its to do with snitching
on people .
had a night out with my mum at the weekend  celebrating her birthday so we went into Manchester she invited some of her friends met some of them before but they dont half get frisky after a few drinks its terrible the language is disgusting most of them have been married years I feel for there husbands .

Have been seeing more of Scot lately he`s at his dads now his dads away allot so its just scot and his dads snotty little wife scot gets on with her  I don't .