3rd year running

Been off work with man flu if there is such an illness .had it for about a week and doctor says just keep taking the fluids and i should be fine it was a woman doctor `am sure a man would have had more sympathy `:). anyway been using the time off work wisely decorating the kitchen could have had someone in to do it but I wanted to do it myself save a bit of money  I know if it was left to Scot he would have had the guy in  anyhow hes already had lots of work from us like new carpets fitted and laminated flooring . been living hear several months now its scots mums house needed a fair bit doing to it as it was a old house but were getting there.

Ben & Mark have turned 15 had a grate Party invited most of there friends and all had a good time Mark got a bit drunk sick everywhere Mum & Martin wernt impressed still I did the same when I was that age more than once Ben helps Martin at the weekends he does loft conversions as long as martian pays him Ben`s happy help .

for the 3rd year I have been doing something started by Jayman (gifts for Larry) and each year you get a few toys or Games together and donate them to somewhere that would be put  to good use I usually ended up spending about 20-30 pounds on the toys and games .anyway this year I have used my brain a bit more `dont do that allot :)' but remember the group I work with well I asked ruth who runs the group If i could do something ask them to help me out Ive been thinking about it for some time asking some of the group to help me  also I wanted to bring  Larry`s story to the Group discussions also Gabe got mentioned It wasnt so bad as i had got to know some of the people who attend they are only young teens 13-17 years old and are gay or bi boys & girls and some have been through a fair bit with there family some were kicked out and homeless Thats were Ruth came in finding them somewhere to stay she`s a social worker so works with kids put in care exc .

one of the group steven 17 now anyway he`s in foster care and I have got quite attached to him only a few years older then me but has had a shit life always struggled  anyway we helped him get into collage. sorted out a cv for him and after a few knock backs got himself 

a job at a local supermarket evenings and some weekends  the money`s helping him with collage and people are trusting him again  weve helped others to with various problems 

anyway they are all getting a Toy or a game and they are going to a local charity.

Also I have decided to do something else something I really could have done before When I was 13 Mum had a breast  cancer scare she was fine in the end but I didnt deal with the whole thing that well .so I wanted to do something manchester has a children s hospital and 

a department for treating cancer I wanted to do something to put something else back  so last week I attended an auction  for children in need  with my mum and decided to join in with the biding its something mum enjoys buying something at knocked down price usually liquidation stock anyhow I did a bit of bidding for charity and got some stuff am giving to the cancer unit stuff like video games cd`s books worth several hundred  but I didnt pay that .

my dads well driving more good to see him with a smile on his face doing something he loves  long distances arnt good for him now  he needs another driver usually sharon his wife love her to bits 

Scot now works for emergency services like on the switchboards says it can be stressful at times but arnt all jobs at some point .  

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I know another long period without a post keeping busy moved in with scot feels right this time  but he`s trying to hard he needs to realise I want  us to be together and that i love him as he is .

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just love this song to bits  David Byrne rocks .

post is a bit short i know but another will follow very soon .

Thrilled & chilled

This summer has had its up`s and downs  one that I will remember for various reasons  one of them being the Manchester pride event last month Scot & me were offered a market stall at this years event selling merchandise  T-shirts, wrist bands, jewellery,programs all provided buy various Gay charities and local business as well as Scot&me having T-shirts and wrist bands that 
we designed ourselves with allot of help from friends of ours like Trish who printed the shirts for us .over the weekend of events I helped with fundraising walking round bar`s talking to the punters with your best smile  it was genuine smile most of the time  and just asking for a donation 
of money to put in my bucket we more or less stuck together in case people got abusive or over friendly did get a grope of some but that`s expected sometimes after a few hours of this someone took over so we could have a few beers I was a little merry by the end of the night .The stall on the next day went brilliant all our T shits sold out quickly we only made 50 all of different sizes as well as the one`s we we given to sell and by the end we only had a few things left  we counted up how much we took and came to a grand total of £742 not bad going  I will admit we wanted to win who took the most money contest but that was over a thousand ££ needed a bigger stall basically but 
all together the markets raised well over 30 thousand pounds and the whole event over the 10 days of various events over a million was raised and we are bloody proud to be part of that .

This has meant so much    To me its not just about raising money it`s also about raising awareness of who you are  and providing support and information to others .



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This song  gets me dancing when am happy or drunk thay usually go together

I wont bore the TITS of you

it has been a while I know have a fair bit to mention  will be easier if I did several so I dont bore you.
DAD.
he`s better after his heart scare several months ago but it has taken its toll in several ways like he`s unable to drive for long periods because of the medication he is under guess that's understandable  he loved driving that was his job driving across the country doing deliveries of building materials but was made redundant in January  he has now decided to take early retirement .he`s been sensible with money took out several pensions years ago     he also decided to move home used to live in a large house but put that up for sale  and renting a bungalow so no more stairs to get up  all on one level  also the bungalow has a huge garden something dad has always wanted  and a shed  keeps him out the way also grandson Joshua keeps him busy 18 months old so bit of a handful  Sharon his wife has been fantastic with everything that has happened with dad she really has been his rock and still manages to hold down he job as a doctors receptionist   though she has reduced her hours so she can be with dad  more  wish people would give me this sort of commitment  when am older .
Been to a few Football matches going to see Sheffield Wednesday I must be dreaming hear because at the moment were doing really really well  
             


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When dad was growing up he was a Mod into bands like The Who .Kinks anyway lot`s of mods also used to be into soul music more Atlantic soul  also known as northern soul he used to go to Discos in the early 70`s
went to all-night  discos  in Wigan or Blackpool anyway dads been reflecting on the times he was up all night dancing  some of the happiest times he was going out with mum at the time   this is one of  his favourite tunes .
dad has always kept stuff like photos   if his sister didn't get to them first that is  she was a bugger for pitching photos and people not seeing them for donkeys years she past away last year .

so that's Dad at the moment just plodding along   well post again in the next day or so  .  

How Gay Sex Changed the World UK DOCUMENTARY | Man Hub ™

I was shown this by a guy called Darren or Daz as he prefers to be called he`s 15 thinks he knows it all
he`s attends the support group that i help out at .it was made a few years back watched it a few times now  if I had seen something like this in my teens like 15-17 it would have helped me understand things better .
it shows how peoples attitudes towards being gay has changed   its taken 45 years to be accepted as an equal  i doubt everyone will . I have only met Darren a couple of times he thinks he `s street wise  but he`s  not.
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I guess am still living in the dark age`s

didnt do the leather things much had a pair of trousers  just made me sweat people may regard it as sexy but alass its not for me .

poppers   i admit have given them a go  again not for me  last time i was spewing up for hours not sexy is it
                                              LEE x

SO MUCH HAPPENING .

Sorry its taken a while to post anything but there are reasons .
DAD
my dad`s not well he was taken ill with heart problems he had a bit of a scare last year and the doctors told him he had a heart murmur and he needed to reduce fatty food . he also cut down on his work at a builders
yard as well as a driver delivering building materials bricks ,wood, exc anyway this year got laid off   knew it was going to happen and when it did he took it bad causing him quite allot of stress  because having no work he got board and stuff  he did have money put by  as well as taking out pensions  keeping for a rainy day  and little nest egg when he retires as well as money from work when he got laid off  should have been happy but as i said he gets board  becomes unbearable to live with  .anyway last month things went really bad began going back to his old way  and ended up in hospital  had a mild heart
attack , then another at the hospital  right in front of everyone  me mum his wife  will admit I thought he was gone then  but he made a slow recovery has had a few operations and he made a steady recovery .
he cant drive at the moment I can tell this is killing him as well as people running around doing things for
him he had a birthday last week 56 and if am honest he looked quite depressed guess anyone would after
having the kind of year he has had .
 

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Dad loves this song says it takes him back to being a young un


SCOT
his mum has died while dad was in hospital  this is quite upsetting  scot loved his mum to bits but she had various issues alcohol when she was in her 20s also addiction to painkillers and substances  Scot says she would constantly find faults with him in his teens at 16 he told her he was gay  I could go on forever about his mum  but scot told me she would die  a sad and bitter women.
His dads  cut up about it to at her funeral allot of people came scot says plenty of people tried to help her
out but she pushed them all away which is really sad.
 Work has more or less kept me sane  I did get time off when dad was in hospital which am grateful for
and Scot wants to go away sometime in September.

things are a bit better checking on dad every few days and his wife Sharon has given up work  and looking after him  and Joshua more or less his grandson is there everyday  bad news is Gail brings him
and does fuck all  lol             

CELEBRATIONS

The united kingdom celebrated the Queen s 60th year on the throne over the weekend  4 days of celebrations including street party`s ,parades ,music concert `` I watched this on tv it was total crap `` think quite a few of the uk population took the  4 days celebration as an excuse to have a 4 day piss up
we had usual British weather rain ,cloudy, bit cold .but did it stop people celebrating DID IT BUGGERY!.
Saturday was spent at Ben & marks School the were having a Fun day despite the fact it rained most of the day it Didn't bother anyone  they had various stalls now moved indoors mark had made some cakes
he shot himself in the foot a bit hear as he never ever ever cooks at home so am sure mum`s going to be having words . Ben was dressed up as a beefeater or a guard at the tower of London but he looked so cute in it he`s still with his girlfriend but I think they have moved on to the next level of the relationship .


Later on we went to uncles house some cousins were down for the weekend from Yorkshire I had not seen some of them since I was 11-12 years old one of them was cousin David 5 years older than me
David was a bit of a bully when he was younger always had an attitude  or chip on his shoulder  but regardless of it all  I had a little crush on him my first male crush  so maybe it was a bit more than a little crush  when I was 12 I thought he was the bees knees wanted to be near him at every opportunity
at bedtime he was on my mind a little and it kept me busy !!!!!!!!!!!
anyhow nowadays he`s put on a couple of pounds  used to have a cute tight bum today you could park a bike in it . he`s really let himself go its tragic . he has several kids  by different woman . also met fay were the same age have birthdays close together and when I was younger we got on really well played together ,told each other everything  when I was younger I was really close to telling her about my feelings towards boys but in the end i chicken`ed  out of it .there was several other cousins arriving god
knows where they were going to stop .

on Sunday we were having lunch together at a hotel 15 of us around two tables put together a tight ish squeeze several other relatives came I had met some last year at my aunty's funeral dads big sister  I was terrified of her as a boy 5-6 used to chase after me and give sloppy kisses  ewwwwwwww.

Lisa and Joshua were there Joshua is such a adorable little kid`` nothing like his mum at all  `` David `s face lit up when he capped eyes on Lisa  god knows why  . but it was nice to see everybody even been invited up to theirs am considering visiting some ....

Monday I went to a rugby club BBQ with some cousins as well as Sam&Allan ikkle Simon ``bundle of fun as always ``and eventually Scot I will admit I had had a few beers on Monday with Fay she is training to be a police officer but you would`nt have guessed but we had the chat about I was Gay  took it well I didnt tell her about lusting after David it was a long time ago  But I more or less mentioned everything else including desperately wanting to tell her when I was younger but didnt have the courage to . it was a really good night stuffed myself stupid with hot dogs , burgers , take a bit of work to get all that fat off me . at the end we lit the beacon and fireworks  A good night had by all